driveustobemad: (it's crowded today)
You have to take turns reading.

Dorian wants to read fairy tales, I want to read six word stories and Helen would like to finish her book of feminist essays. Granted, she's been the most patient out of all of us and should be the one who gets Azi but damnit, I want to read things and Dorian is being irritating.

And this is not including the little one who wants to poke at Azi in general just to see if we have anything interesting on there.

I just...am going to facepalm at all of us.
driveustobemad: (Random cracky funtiems)
The little one and I have been spending the last...Oh, I would say half hour or so arguing about why I can't get Mentos and Coke and see what interesting art can be made out of the fizziness.

I would actually consider doing this if we y'know, had any money whatsoever because it seems like it could be fun. He just kind of forgets that we would actually need the supplies to do this and we so don't hav them.
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Okay, I admit it, Dorian got a cat.

I've been fighting the idea because the last time the headmates got pets was against our permission and ended in lost kittens and us being miserable. This cat doesn't belong to me though and I may as well accept it.

He named it, he sleeps iwth it, we co-front when the dog isn't around so he can take care of it and just....Yeah. Dorian has a cat.

I would facepalm but I think it's kind of good for him. Having the responsibility might help him out some and it's much better than him being annoyed with them, so.

At least no one's claimed Artemis yet.
driveustobemad: (Love!)
Helen and William are awesome and I love them both so, so much.

My head stopped working properly last night and Helen took care of things when I really wasn't able to deal with life anymore. Then she and William dealt with the side effects from my new meds because they knew that I wouldn't be able to deal with it myself.

I just...have no real words because yesterday sucked and I'm not entirely sure it wouldn't have ended well if I had been forced to stay out. I'm trying to get better about go9ing inside when I'm not able to deal with the world instead of trying to force myself to keep going and Helen is really helping with that. I think if I talk to William and Nick, they'll be good about it too, which is nice.

I'm having a 'I shouldn't rely on other people so much' moment right now but in the end, I know it's better for me if I do. I function better when I'm not always fronting and it's generally safer for me if I go inside when I'm really manic or depressed. Sometimes I wind up getting freaked out because I feel like I might get lost and never find my way back out again but I've never actually had that happen to me before, so I know it's a completely nonsensical fear.

So just....yes. The point here is that Helen and WIlliam are awesojme and I am vaguely fail. Nothing really new.
driveustobemad: (Pang of guilt)
>< Fae!Neal is around. This would make me uncomfortable anyway but he's fairly late in the verse and I am getting the ghost of his scars on my hands. I keep looking down and expecting my palms to be torn up and it feels odd for them not to be bandaged. I'm just...not sure what to do.

I am just going to be in the corner...doing things. I don't know what. Concentrating on other people, mostly.
driveustobemad: (Fuck everything)
You know, there are things I like; music, certain activities, that I wind up not being able to do because it reminds me of The Crazy One. Not only does it remind me of him but it attracts his attention and I just do not want that. He's been hanging around lately and the less of his attention I get, the more likely it is he's going to go off soon and that would be lovely.

It just sucks becuase right now there's a storm out and I'm really in the mood to curl up and listen to Wolf Parade and Wintersleep and he likes doing these things and has absolutely no issues with stealing the front.

Yeah, yeah, I know, not the biggest problem in the world but sometimes it bothers me. I just wish I could do certain things without having to be paranoid that he's going to come around and fuck things up. Even Lost is better than him because she's never stolen before which is...probably good, all things considered, but she's not inclined to do things without her sister and her pet.

I'm just feeling whiny right now, don't mind me. Whiny and vaguely annoyed and wanting certain things that I just can't do.
driveustobemad: (Love!)
I always kind of forget that there is actually a picture book that was made for Instructions. Whenever it comes up, I seriously consider getting it for the Blank Slate boys.

I want to get a small library of things for the Blank Slate boys though, so y'know this is not surprising.

I am seriously debating the merits of getting it when I move out as a gift for them. >> It wouldn't cost that much and Theta in general would appreciate it. Plus just....Those boys love that story so much,, it makes me flail and want to pet them and just....It would be really nice.

*fails a little*
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We are not going out and buying fireworks tomorrow. Ignoring the fact that we don't really have the money to spare this month, I don't fucking trust you with fireworks.

And no, just becuase you get Theta and Sangria to side with you does not make your case any stronger, it just affirms the fact that I have a headspace full of people who're stupid enough to think this body has a quick enough reaction time to get out of the way of fireworks.

Theta may wind up getting sparklers however, because he's been sleeping for me and it would be nice for him. *only fails a little bit*
driveustobemad: (Love!)
So, here we are again. New site but the same journal. I may also set up cross-posting on there but I have not decided. I need to possibly poke at the twitter for this journal too. >>

But yeah, it's the shinyshiny headmate journal where I comment on other people, make lists, do things and general use this to say things I am still not comfortable saying in my proper journal.

So yeah, now that we've got that out of the way, I should do the things I meant to do.

Thank you time!

Helen, you are wonderful. I've already said this to you but you are absolutely amazing. Thank you so much for helping me these past two weeks between being there and helping me be stable to taking over when I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it. You are amazing and wonderful and very good.

Nikola: I am not as grateful for you because I know you got coerced into helping but I do thaink you anyway. Plus y'know, I think you got payback when you got to ride Space Mountain twice.

Theta: Thank you for coming around! I know you're not feeling well right now but it's good to see you and there are lots and lots of pets.

Uhm...yeah. Not many other reasons to say thank you right now and I am sleepy, so there will be bed. I've been sleeping myself more often than not these days which is kind of strange but I think I am going to probably ask Theta to sleep tomorrow. He can curl up with Detroit and it will be sweet.

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