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In which I am eternally grateful.
Jul. 13th, 2011 08:34 pmHelen and William are awesome and I love them both so, so much.
My head stopped working properly last night and Helen took care of things when I really wasn't able to deal with life anymore. Then she and William dealt with the side effects from my new meds because they knew that I wouldn't be able to deal with it myself.
I just...have no real words because yesterday sucked and I'm not entirely sure it wouldn't have ended well if I had been forced to stay out. I'm trying to get better about go9ing inside when I'm not able to deal with the world instead of trying to force myself to keep going and Helen is really helping with that. I think if I talk to William and Nick, they'll be good about it too, which is nice.
I'm having a 'I shouldn't rely on other people so much' moment right now but in the end, I know it's better for me if I do. I function better when I'm not always fronting and it's generally safer for me if I go inside when I'm really manic or depressed. Sometimes I wind up getting freaked out because I feel like I might get lost and never find my way back out again but I've never actually had that happen to me before, so I know it's a completely nonsensical fear.
So just....yes. The point here is that Helen and WIlliam are awesojme and I am vaguely fail. Nothing really new.
My head stopped working properly last night and Helen took care of things when I really wasn't able to deal with life anymore. Then she and William dealt with the side effects from my new meds because they knew that I wouldn't be able to deal with it myself.
I just...have no real words because yesterday sucked and I'm not entirely sure it wouldn't have ended well if I had been forced to stay out. I'm trying to get better about go9ing inside when I'm not able to deal with the world instead of trying to force myself to keep going and Helen is really helping with that. I think if I talk to William and Nick, they'll be good about it too, which is nice.
I'm having a 'I shouldn't rely on other people so much' moment right now but in the end, I know it's better for me if I do. I function better when I'm not always fronting and it's generally safer for me if I go inside when I'm really manic or depressed. Sometimes I wind up getting freaked out because I feel like I might get lost and never find my way back out again but I've never actually had that happen to me before, so I know it's a completely nonsensical fear.
So just....yes. The point here is that Helen and WIlliam are awesojme and I am vaguely fail. Nothing really new.
