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[driveustobemad]

The Caretaker n(Or Cece, depending on who you are) is settling in well. She's curled up in the front right now, being calm and quiet and trying to help me push away the bad thoughts that have been trying to eat at me all day.

She's a good thing, I think, she's kind to me and smart and smug and challenging and mothering all at once. This is what I need, I think, this is what will help.

She's going to work on the Forest while I sleep, turning it into more of a shield than anything. She says she would have me do it while I'[m awake but my anxiety levels have been so bad lately that it will probably be easier for her to do it while I'm sleeping.

I never thought of these things, having shields and things li8ke that. I never thought i needed them.

I feel kind of like the little one in that regard, I don't know, it was just odd.

She's going to talk to Aurora and Catnip about maybe being protectors. There's no one who really does that, not really. n But those two can protect me and she'd especi8ally want Aurora for her magic.

All of these things are changing in my head, it'[s a big rush of shifting but I...don't know. Not in a bad way./ It feels natural, so I guess that means it's a good thing. *shrug* We'll see, I guess.

Anyway, there should be sleep. I want to get up early tomorrow and Nick says he got me a surprise while he was out the other day. l...have no idea what it is but I am kind0 of nervous. He already got me one thing that I am just amazed with, I can only imagine what the other thing is.

Comments

[thatyourefuse]

I am v.v. glad you are being looked out for, you. You and your lot have been very much in my thoughts recently (and I am thinking of some good words to write down for you. If there are some sorts of things you like particularly do let me know.)

[silveradept]

Learning to cope sometimes means learning about things that you never thought you needed. Like a forest for bad things to get lost in, turned around, and gently but firmly shown the way out.

[avia]

Oh... that's wonderful. Shields! I don't usually think I need them either but... life is being so rough for you, you are caught in such a twisty current of the world's flow and, any little thing you can do to help is good, shields are good, keeping safe is good. If you have people who can take care of you, protect you, put defence around you then that is good, that is good, because you are a beautiful creature caught in a storm and shelter is good, it is natural.

I'm glad you might be getting protectors too. I don't know Catnip (such a dear name though! ♥), but, I would definitely trust Aurora for that.

I'm glad these changes are happening for you. I think they will make things better, I do.

[amethystfirefly]

Mairyn says that a lot of mental illnesses involve an energy overload caused by too much energy coming in. Shielding helps filter that out, but it's not something that a lot of people think of because our world is very firmly focused on the physical and shielding is not a very physical thing.

I'm so, so glad that Cece is settling in well. I think she'll do you a whole helluva lot of good and will definitely speed along your healing.

♥