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Oct. 3rd, 2011 12:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
driveustobemadThe Caretaker n(Or Cece, depending on who you are) is settling in well. She's curled up in the front right now, being calm and quiet and trying to help me push away the bad thoughts that have been trying to eat at me all day.
She's a good thing, I think, she's kind to me and smart and smug and challenging and mothering all at once. This is what I need, I think, this is what will help.
She's going to work on the Forest while I sleep, turning it into more of a shield than anything. She says she would have me do it while I'[m awake but my anxiety levels have been so bad lately that it will probably be easier for her to do it while I'm sleeping.
I never thought of these things, having shields and things li8ke that. I never thought i needed them.
I feel kind of like the little one in that regard, I don't know, it was just odd.
She's going to talk to Aurora and Catnip about maybe being protectors. There's no one who really does that, not really. n But those two can protect me and she'd especi8ally want Aurora for her magic.
All of these things are changing in my head, it'[s a big rush of shifting but I...don't know. Not in a bad way./ It feels natural, so I guess that means it's a good thing. *shrug* We'll see, I guess.
Anyway, there should be sleep. I want to get up early tomorrow and Nick says he got me a surprise while he was out the other day. l...have no idea what it is but I am kind0 of nervous. He already got me one thing that I am just amazed with, I can only imagine what the other thing is.
She's a good thing, I think, she's kind to me and smart and smug and challenging and mothering all at once. This is what I need, I think, this is what will help.
She's going to work on the Forest while I sleep, turning it into more of a shield than anything. She says she would have me do it while I'[m awake but my anxiety levels have been so bad lately that it will probably be easier for her to do it while I'm sleeping.
I never thought of these things, having shields and things li8ke that. I never thought i needed them.
I feel kind of like the little one in that regard, I don't know, it was just odd.
She's going to talk to Aurora and Catnip about maybe being protectors. There's no one who really does that, not really. n But those two can protect me and she'd especi8ally want Aurora for her magic.
All of these things are changing in my head, it'[s a big rush of shifting but I...don't know. Not in a bad way./ It feels natural, so I guess that means it's a good thing. *shrug* We'll see, I guess.
Anyway, there should be sleep. I want to get up early tomorrow and Nick says he got me a surprise while he was out the other day. l...have no idea what it is but I am kind0 of nervous. He already got me one thing that I am just amazed with, I can only imagine what the other thing is.
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Date: 2011-10-03 04:01 pm (UTC)Catnip is a sweetheart. Who likes to make things explode. She's part of one of the families who live in the headspace. She takes care of them, so having one more person won't be too much trouble for her, I think.
I hope they might. I really do. I'm crossing my fingers, at the very least.